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Body Integrity Identity Disorder

July 17, 2013

Readers, it was very difficult for me, as a lifelong physically disabled person, to read this.

Chloe Jennings is 58, physically healthy, intelligent, educated from one of the best universities in the world, and has a good career. Yet she’s desperate to be a wheelchair user.

Readers, I am not a permanent wheelchair user. However, I can tell you that when I do use my wheelchair, I very often feel that I am invisible to everyone but the people with me. That is not a pleasant feeling.

I know and love many permanent wheelchair users and I am pretty sure that all of them would give absolutely anything to be able to get up and walk normally at will.

I don’t want anyone to get me wrong- I have learnt to be very happy with my life as a physically disabled person. I do not wish for a miraculous cure for myself. However, nor do I wish for my situation to get any worse.

Reaching the point I have reached today, the point at which I am happy and proud to be who I am, disability and all, has taken me a very long time. There are still things I wish I could do. There are still things I wish I didn’t have to do. There are things I have seen and been through that I wish every day had not happened. But I have no choice. There are times when knowing that hurts like Hell, but I know it now and I have learnt to live with it.

So why anyone lucky enough not to be physically disabled and reliant on a wheelchair for movement would want to pretend to need one is something I will never understand.

Chloe Jennings and anyone else who thinks this way clearly has a mental disorder. But based purely on my own life experiences, it is very hard for me to feel sympathetic towards anyone who thinks in this way.

You may, or may not, feel differently. Your comments, as always, are very welcome below.

4 Comments leave one →
  1. October 2, 2015 10:52 pm

    Absolutely gobsmacked that anyone would have such dysfunction that they would do this to themselves, she is simply crying out for sympathy and attention and what a way to get it! I feel very sorry for her as she is a really sad person. There are enough problems in life without doing something like this. I have heard of hearing people deliberately making themselves deaf in the same way and I just cannot get to grips with this, I also use a wheelchair as well as being profoundly deaf, life is challenging enough without creating problems! I feel same as the author samedifference, just cannot understand it. I feel so sorry for those people, they do not appreciate the beauty of what they have got

  2. October 3, 2015 2:09 am

    Reblogged this on perfectlyfadeddelusions and commented:
    I don’t blame you.

    When I had my physical mental breakdown I couldn’t walk or move, an need a wheelchair to get around. I hated it because I got ignored too, it’s not a nice feeling when you have walked and then basically dependent on a wheelchair.

    Why anybody would want to is beyond me. Though I am wondering if they are doing it for sympathy and the fact they get attention and told they are strong.

    Which is mentally disturbing. They sound a lot like the social justice warriors who say that they have every mental condition going for attention.

    Sorry if this sounds rude, I’ve just had a lot of experience with these kinds of people and situations. But I am sorry if this has upset you or rude.

  3. October 4, 2015 12:40 am

    I like the others who have commented am a severely disabled person who needs a wheelchair on a permanent basis, I must say that these sort of stories make me angry. You know I didn’t ask for my disabilitys and I can’t imagine the other’s who have commented did either but we have them all the same and have to get through life with them as best we can and make it as easy as possible for our selves. I truly believe people who deliberately make themselves blind, deaf, or inflict themselves with problems unnecessarily must have some kind of mental illness, otherwise they have to be attention seeking, I just can’t get my head around it. One day all of this may come back to haunt them in some way, being disabled is no picnic let me tell you, it can be embarrassing at times, some people are very rude and stare at you or some others give you a patronising smile, I think any disabled person will agree when I say that we would all prefer not to be disabled at all.


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